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im convinced.
I'm done with school
I got a boyfriend.
all the things i was affraid of.
affraid of moving on.
but sometimes i realized you
have to let go and trust yourself
and what you  and not want to do not your
head is telling you. More and more each day 
Joe shows me he cares
Its so surreal. i can't believe it. my parents like him
my friends like him. and im pretty sure i do too.
i dont know why i hide from what im affraid of.
its really a bad habbit.

Tonight was an amazing night.
the view was just amazing.
everything.
Everything happens for a reason
and yet its creepy at the same time.
but when it comes down to it all
i find myself smiling at the entire
i would'nt say situation but yeah,
it's like out of a movie.

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Uh Oh.

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prom dress shopping today.
last night was interesting.
Im in a techno/trance mood latley.
the past few days have been
very interesting...
i dont know .
weird.

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Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

life has a funny way of doing things.
or maybe it's just my luck.
seems like in the end
someone or something comes through.
thank you god.
i hope things work out
cause its crazy how im feeling now.
nothing can really bring me down.
well it can.
but it feels like nothing can right now.

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just got off the phone.
2 hr convo.
for once im actually 
really happy.
im tired so i'll write
more tomorrow.
but it's funny how it
always ends.

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 Found the perfect prom dress.
now i need a date
I'm currently working on that.
saw an old friend today.
ran like a little girl.
grow some balls and
ask yourself why run?.
what are you afriad of?
it was kind of funny....
actually it was hilarious.


its amazing how things make 
you stronger.

its funny how you look at a person
and you realize " wow"
after they treated you like crap
and an entire relationship was a joke.
and not to mention guess friendship
means nothing... kind of sucks to realize
that. but you find out who really loves you
when your in your weakest moments 
who in the end is there for you?

but all in all, im quite happy.
actually im awesome.
last weekend was awesome.

new someone &&
I met john<3 my amazingly awesome
best friend for 4 years. 
life is great. im perfectly content right now.

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                                                                                                                                                                 Won't you change me.



This week, weekend was very good.
alot happened. 

There's only grace
There's only love
There's only mercy and believe me it's enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
And there's nothing left now
There's only grace......

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Amazing how we all want this life a little more everyday.
It's crazy how we pick ourselves up just to let us down anyway.
The one thing that you're missing is loungin' on the log right next to you.
So pick up that precious something and relax for a delicate few.

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Things are actually starting to come together... piece by piece.
I think through songs our emotions just let out in times when
we can't really say anything..heres my outlook right now better
say it before i become completly unable to again.

I think guys date ugly girls b.c they need to feel better about themselves.
or they just move on quickly cause there so dependent on someone
and maybe now they dont really know how to tell that person they really
don't like them now so they bare along with it...either way trust no one.

I'm sick of Senior year.. proms going to suck and im tired of dealing with
the same shit each and every day. I cannot way to go to college. I've decided
I am going to stay at Domincan and live on campus. It sucks that one day
in your life you make all these plans for one person and in the end its nothing
of what you wanted to do and that person doesn't even acknowlege that you 
went through all that shit for them so you' re completly stuck doing something
you don't want too. my motto...(deal with it).

I've been watching scrubs latley and it has been helping me deal with alot of 
stuff. Letting my mind think about what I am going to do when I grow up and
putting some comedic releif. I am on season 4 for scrubs so I got 2 more to 
go.

Also, I have came to the conclusion to what is love?... Love is that person that 
will be there at the end of the day for you no matter what. No matter if you had a
shitty day and they had one they still will be there for you no matter what and 
that is what love is.. that one person you can rely on when you're in the most
desperate situations and in the times when you struggle. They truley do help
you. And love doesn't just have to be by a bf or gf I think love can be shown
through friendships just as much if not more. That little thing your friend does
just because or because they know you and their just being there for you.

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Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
’Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's a perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

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Isn't it tragic?
Isn't it something?
I'm starting to regret the way I used to be now
I'm finding that I'll take
Every risk that just might come my way
But don't, don't you dare try to
Try to make sense out of me


John comes Sat
and im freakin pumped.
Im going to take the l 
and then were going
to take it back and im goin
to show him a good time. 
its been like 4 freakin years.
hellz yeah. 

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I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
swear I knew it all along
and I am flawed
but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
the things you swore you saw yourself

my hope
dangles on a string
like slow-spinning redemption

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 Aren't we so good at holding on to the past? If we weren't speeding, I'm sure we wouldn't have crashed. Under the influence of our shallow lust; I know

we should be careful but that won't happen to us... Love is a second, third, fourth and fifth shot. God knows I need it; God knows you haven't forgot...

Oh and you are too much like a drug to me. No longer what I want, just what I think I need. Why would I leave when I could waste away with you? 
Less
concerned with what I'll find than what I could lose... It's easier to look down than to look you straight in the eye. I'll only say this once because I

know it's going to make you cry. There is a reason I feel lost when I'm not with you. It's not because of love; it's just that you are what I've gotten

used to... Nothing left; but you say "Can't you give us one more try? We're in a knot that I can't let you untie": If we don't leave now, we never will.

Turn your back one last time on me